I HAD A BABY! 41 HOURS OF LABOR & BIRTH STORY *TRAUMATIC*
1,794,197 views 4 years ago
Hey guys! I'M BACK & I AM A MOMMY! I have been away for 3 MONTHS on maternity leave which is unbelievable, on December 1st I had my miracle baby after 15 years of infertility! I had so many ideas of what I thought my birth would look like, and it ended up being SO different. When you watch this birth story, please know that I am aware that there are a LOT of opinions about birth and everyone has different experiences. I know that there may be a lot of people who have a lot to say about my birth, because theirs (or yours) might have been harder, or easier, or more or less traumatic.. and that is the thing - we are ALL different and experience things so differently. I didn't want this to be my story.. but it is. The events leading up to my sons birth (and what happened after he was born) were so traumatic to me that it took me 9 weeks to be able to talk about it after a lot of therapy. *** I want to make it BLATANTLY CLEAR that I have ZERO issues with hospitals, with epidurals, with c-sections, none of that. I think EVERY way that ANYONE wants to birth is valid, beautiful and their own. Everyone has preferences, for instance, my best friend chose to schedule c-sections for herself - that is HER preference and I think that is amazing. My other friend had a home birth with a midwife & doula - her choice her preference. My other best friend chose a hospital birth center with epidural - her choice her preference. I do not EVER judge or care what ANYONE wants to do in their birth. I think the same goes here - if someone had wanted a scheduled c-section and ended up going into labor and giving birth at home - that could be very traumatizing for them - As it was SO different from their birth preference, ya know? It has nothing to do with feeling like one birth is "better" than another - because I do not believe that. Just way different than anticipated. It was just SO long, drawn out, painful and after he was born and we weren't sure if he was okay.. it was a LOT. For anyone who wants to know what happened, baby was asynclitic. Re-editing this, I told Zack "I don't know if I am justified in feeling as traumatized by this as I have.. because ultimately our son was okay" and he said "Kristi no, it was SO difficult and SO traumatizing for me too. If you get in a car crash, even if you all survive it can still be traumatizing to you" and that made me realize that he is right. Ultimately our sweet angel baby is here with us and doing SO well - which is the MOST important thing. I believe that everyone is valid in feeling however they do about their own birth experience. People always say "as long as the baby is healthy, thats all that matters" and while it is the MOST important part, it is not ALL that matters. The parents mental health and experience matters too. Please be kind in the comments so I can leave them on. I will do a Q&A answering any questions that you all have after this video is up for a bit, so make sure to follow on other social media (IG & Twitter) if you want to participate in the Q&A if there was something I didn't cover! ♦ SOCIAL MEDIA ♦ I N S T A G R A M http://instagram.com/rawbeautykristi T W I T T E R https://twitter.com/RawBeautyKristi BUSINESS E-MAIL: kristi@infagency.com __________________________________________________________________ ♦ CODES: ♦ I have a few discount codes with different brands, they are affiliate links so if you use my code, I will receive a small commission from those purchases! COLOURPOP: DISCOUNT CODE "KRISTI" - 10% OFF BH COSMETICS: DISCOUNT CODE "KRISTI" - 10% OFF MAKEUP GEEK - RAWBEAUTYKRISTI SIGMA http://sigma-beauty.7eer.net/c/196942... CAMOEYES: https://camoeyes.com/?ref=72 CODE: RAWBEAUTYKRISTI - 10% OFF __________________________________________________________________ Thanks for watching! Kristi xoxo HI! My name is Kristi! Welcome to my channel! First off, I am not your average YouTube Beauty Vlogger. I do the typical Product Reviews, Makeup Tutorials, Lifestyle Vlogs and SO much more, all with a sense of humor and a bit of a potty mouth. You can ALWAYS be assured that i am giving my full and HONEST opinion. SUBSCRIBE & Join in on the fun! FTC Disclaimer: This video is NOT sponsored. All opinions are 100% mine. I only talk about products I genuinely like and only give honest reviews. ALL LINKS beginning with an asterisk are affiliate links * Affiliate links meaning if you click the link and purchase items through that link, I will receive a small commission on that purchase* Some products are sent to me for consideration of a review. (PR)

Shorts

RawBeautyKristi
• 5 months ago
Hey friends, planning on still keeping up with my Monday, Wednesday, Friday schedule going forward but had a really really rough last week (we all 3 got hit down bad with the flu and pink eye) Hopefully it’s coming to an end soon but just wanted to say, I’m looking forward to uploading again soon! Some of you have reached out and asked why I just disappeared, that’s why! Been like the 7th sickness since Christmas, so this has been brutal 😝😮‍💨
262
73
RawBeautyKristi
• 2 years ago
Hey everyone! We have a new video up on our ‪@sweetlifeofzackkristi9574‬ channel that I think you’ll really like. It’s a FULL pantry remodel & organizational video. We hired professional organizers and omg it’s LIFE changing! https://youtu.be/4dYeLBvMww0
1K
20
RawBeautyKristi
• 2 years ago
Hey everyone, if you don’t follow our second channel you may not have seen but we’ve been super active over there. If you’re interested in homesteading, self reliance, gardening, or just overall good vibes, come subscribe! ‪@sweetlifeofzackkristi9574‬
933
19
RawBeautyKristi
• 3 years ago
I’ve had some people asking where I’ve been and I updated on Twitter a while back and IG stories a few weeks ago.. thought I’d mention here TW: mental health crisis At the end of August I had a mental health break/crisis. I won’t go into too much detail, but my baby got sick (he’s totally fine) but since I have severe generalized anxiety disorder it sent me on a spiral of panic and fear that I’ve never experienced before in my life. I was in a constant state of fight or flight. My heart was literally beating out of my chest 24/7. In 1.5 weeks I lost 20lbs. I couldn’t eat, and I didn’t sleep for almost a week and was desperately begging doctors for any help they could give me. To say I hit rock bottom is an understatement I have never experienced such a low time in my entire life. It’s now October and I am still waist deep in mental health struggles I am 4 weeks into treatment (started SSRIs + need meds still to sleep) I am seeing my doctor 2-3 times a week and my therapist 2-3x weekly as well I am praying to God I see the light at the end of this soon. I am working closely with everyone to get better, but this process is LONG. It’s a LOT of waiting, white knuckling it through horrific symptoms and emotions I didn’t know I had, just to see if this medication is even the right fit or if we have to switch/add/change etc. I was resistant to medication for a long time, and that I believe was my first mistake. I let myself get too far gone. I let my anxiety get too intense, I let the fear take me over. Becoming a mom softened all of my edges and made me more vulnerable than I knew I ever could be.. add the isolation of the pandemic and you had a recipe for disaster. I am still here, but will be gone until I am healed. This is the hardest and most challenging thing I have ever been through and staying hopeful has been nearly impossible, but I’m trying so hard. Thank you all for sticking around. I’ll be back someday, and I hope that day is soon 💕
23K
1.7K
RawBeautyKristi
• 5 years ago
Hey guys!! So I haven’t been able to get my video finished editing to post quite yet discussing the collection and restock (the collection sold out Sunday!) I posted over on my IG and twitter but in case you don’t follow there, here’s the information on the #PURXRAWBEAUTYKRISTI preorder restock! Starts tomorrow at 12:00 noon PST and ends Monday at 11:59pm PST!
5.5K
295
RawBeautyKristi
• 6 years ago
Thank you for understanding 💕
17K
1.6K